idag
walking for 2,5 hours.
This text and song is for you Murathan:
I've been alone
When i'm surrounded by friends
How could the silence be so loud
But i still go home knowing that i've got you
There's us when the lights go down
You are my heaven on earth
You are my hunger, my thirst
I always hear this voice inside
Singing ave maria
Sometimes love can come and pass you by
While your busy making plans
Suddenly hit you and then you realize
It's out of your hands, baby you got to understand
You are my heaven on earth
I miss you. My heart Justin justin justin justin.
I GO CRAZY!!!! onsdag
please someone take me away from here and drop me into justins arms in alanya! PLEASE.. :(
its really a bad day today. i just spoke with my love and i really miss him. so so so so much. anyway i will call him later again, and i am so happy he has got a good work, but i just sit here, i dont feel like doing anything. i try to clean my room and fix with all my dirty clothes but i can almost not even do that.
its never been so bad as it is now, but also it is good because everything is so good beetween me and justin, the only problem is that its an ocean and mabe five or six other countries beetween us right now!! I want to be there, but how even how much i say it it will not happen before i have money again , I KNOW i will go there in august, nothing can change that! but i would so much like to go one time before that to! i really hope i can do that.
I Love you Murathan, dont forget me.
No i will go out and run to get away a little bit of my restlessness so mabe i can sleep better tonight. And after i will call Justin.
Bye bye for so long!
Sunday, 5 days left
You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So i try to find the words that i could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever
You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, I wish that I could stay
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever
I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Till that day
Theres nothing else that I can do
And I just cant take it
I just cant take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But i can wait
I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
Fredag
If I could I would pull it up and rewind
To the time when it was just me and you
Oh how we were inseparable
If I could I'd pull it up and rewind
To the time before
Wish I could go back to yesterday
If I could I'd pull it up and rewind
So I sit down and I had
try Are you living up in this life?
I know if I could I'd pull it up and rewind
If I had the gift be here I'd cure your
Take the Breena and stuck em up all with answers
Take the crack feen turn her into the prom queen
Have her graduate suma ku la day
But she so high that she's riding on drug assist
Growing up like the women from the exorcist
Her heart stopped in the ambulance
I am waiting for jonneli, we will go out and take a walk, its nice weather outside today so it can be ok. Later i will call Murathan. I miss him.
(L) Murathan
Haaaard work work =) torsdag
I got to hear good news about my dad today! =) or good and good, its a chance now for life.
I like my grandmother so much, Alice jaa, :) shes always nice to me!
I will go soon to work. BYE BYE
♥♥♥♥ onsdag kväll jaaaa
Goodnight.
If you believe in me, I believe in you, we can work it out.
No matter what we feel, if our love is real, we can work it out.
=)
onsdag - wednesday
she is always so slow jaa..! haha
anyway i will fix with music now, i am downloading a lot of stuff but i dont now what half of it is, i think i have like 500 songs to go through and see wich ones i like to burn down on cd for justin, i just have 7 cds so i will see if i will use them all or not.
Ok By for so long ja.
Just a simple word
It's two hearts living
In two separate worlds
But it's no sacrifice
No sacrifice
It's no sacrifice at all
We lose direction
No stone unturned
No tears to damn you
When jealousy burns.
Love Murathan =)
Hejdå!
All is gone
and if it does not work good it will not be my mistake, cause i will make everything to make this work ja, and thats all i can do!
But we are 2 persons that has to want the same, and i hope it will be like that.
I am so tired, but i cannot sleep, my father called and said goodnight and when he said bye, i said "i love you dad" but he hanged up and he did not here it. and i cannot call him back cause the hospitals phones dont take calls after a special time in the evening. soooo i have to wait until tomorrow. I miss my dad i hope he will be able to get home to the weekend so atleast he can celebrate easter here in the home and that he dont have to be hospital that special time.
One man i Also miss so my heart gets crazy is Murathan but his phone is of right now. I can call him later. In the state i am in i cannot sleep anyway so ill just sit here and send music with Jonneli on msn, she will mabe help me later to download photoshop for free! then i can make nice pictures and i will try to change this look for my blogg to! somthing with me and murathan instead, jaa because i want it to be like that because he is my love,
Ok have a nice time ja. what can i do.
I love you Murathan, Always.
Home again.....
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't begin
To pull me back to the ground again
Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breaking
The risk that I'm taking
I'm never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
soo, i will go to toilet now and make myself ready for bed, after that i will call murathan my one and only love, and then i will try to sleep.
the hours go so slowly. but i promise i can wait forever.
I Love this picture =) ♥Goodnight.
Jaha nu har det rgnat ı tva dagar?
ar less pa regnet och vıll ha falukorv och stuvade mackısar, men jag kan ınte aka hem fast jag borde verklıgen verklıgen gora det.
ıdag har jag och justın bestamt att ınte ga pa dısco mer an en gang ı veckan om ens det vı ar SA less pa det. jag vet ınte rıktıgt vad jag ska skrıva.... har sa mycket ı huvudet att ınget kommer ut, det ar skrıvartorka pa hog nıva.
ıaf sa borde nı sett forlovnıngsfesten, hans slakt har ju som tur nog (hahaha) spelat ın den pa fılm, sa jag har dvd att vısa nar jag kommer hem. hans famılj ar jattesnall han har fem systrar och en bror men han ar ı mılıtaren. hans mamma ar jattegosıg och justın klammer ofta pa hennes mage och skrattar at henne nar hon skrattar for da gungar magen ganska mycket.
att forlova sıg ı turkıet ar ınte alls som ı sverıge, tror jag ı alla fall, har ju aldrıg gjort det ı sverıge men jag kan ınte tanka mıg att folk dansar lıka mycket som har ı alla fall, (jaaa jag dansade ı mın lılla pralınlıknande tartklannıng) haha. Och det var ett hımla fıxande ınnan ocksa, jag skulle tıll frısoren, de kopte klannıng, fıxade smınket, vaxade mıg under armarna haha, ja det var mycket fıx hursom helst, justın sa at sına syrror att emma kan fıxa sıtt har sjalv, men de ınsısterade hart och tankte att ska man gora det sa ska man gora det ordentlıgt, nagot sant.
Jag saknar dem ı alla fall eftersom det ar 16 tımmars bussresa dıt sa kommer vı nog ınte se dem ıgen pa lange, fast det gar ju ınte att jamfora med hur mycket jag saknar pappa, mamma, elın och lınus!
nu ska jag ga och satta mıg med justın och tıtta vad han gor, ar less pa datorn for ıdag. Hejda! ha det bra.
HEJ natalıe.
Ha det bra =)
OKej :D
Såhär ser jag ut efter haircuten,:) ingen skillnad, ingen jag träffade märkte det heller. hehe
nu åker jag till sthlm idag och sover hos morbror, sen vidare imorgon bitti!!!!!!!
Ha en bra dag :)
FRISSAN
det är i alla fall mycket bättre än sussis förslag om att snagga alltihopa:) men det kanske hade varit en fin överaskning för min vän på andra sidan havet? ;)
Nu är det snart fikapaus, jag har köpt avskedsfika hit till jobbet, min sista dag.
har gjort alla uppgifter jag fått för tillfället och chefen är på LKAB så jag får vänta tills han kommer tillbaka innan jag kan göra något mer.
ha en bra eftermiddag!
MOAHAHAHA!
Ska köpa fika , gå på bokrean på domus och sen hem tilllägenheten om jag inte hinner med några andra affärer. Jullan kommer på avskedsfika, =)
trevlig eftermiddag! TJOLAHOPP:D
