I dont wanna be here !! they dont even call me for extra work, so far i have just got one night extrawork and thats first the 6th june.!!! HOW WILL I LIVE JAA!!

please someone take me away from here and drop me into justins arms in alanya! PLEASE.. :(

its really a bad day today. i just spoke with my love and i really miss him. so so so so much. anyway i will call him later again, and i am so happy he has got a good work, but i just sit here, i dont feel like doing anything. i try to clean my room and fix with all my dirty clothes but i can almost not even do that.
its never been so bad as it is now, but also it is good because everything is so good beetween me and justin, the only problem is that its an ocean and mabe five or six other countries beetween us right now!! I want to be there, but how even how much i say it it will not happen before i have money again , I KNOW i will go there in august, nothing can change that! but i would so much like to go one time before that to! i really hope i can do that.

I Love you Murathan, dont forget me.





No i will go out and run to get away a little bit of my restlessness so mabe i can sleep better tonight. And after i will call Justin.

Bye bye for so long!